A bar in Baltimore- Saturday night

[notconflicted]

Sia hadn't cared much about her birthday in the past, and she wasn't sure she cared now. But, she really shouldn't have gotten to this birthday, and it was a milestone which meant nothing at home, and it was just days before graduation in Fandom. Once she'd managed to swing a couple days when no one would be looking for her that hard, she more or less had to come back, right?

A few people had been invited. Nothing big, and anyone was welcome to come and go as they pleased, though she had managed to find a bar that wasn't completely insane tonight.

And as she came back from opening a tab, Sia asked, "Why would they beg us not to order margaritas?"


[For a few, but open if your character's at the bar!]

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[notconflicted]

"To you for dealing with it," she clarified. She'd gotten over the feeling of wanting to apologize to Atton about five months ago.

[myownface]

Sparkle blinked, and then he ducked his head and laughed a little.

"Nah," he replied. "I mean, he's hard to get a read on, but he's still Atton. He's like a brother to me, you know? He's confusing. Sometimes he drives me fucking insane. But it's not, like, a chore."

[notconflicted]

"Good," she said, genuinely glad to hear it. "And I don't mean to say he is. I've just gotten used to him being... difficult."

That word about summed it up, yes.

[myownface]

Sounded like the right word to Sparkle, anyway!

"He never was the most cooperative guy out there," he allowed. "That's sort of his thing, I guess. But if he feels happier or safer or just less twitchy that way, then he's welcome to it, so long as he's not secretly melting down or something."

[notconflicted]

"True," she said after a moment. "I should probably start viewing it that way."

[myownface]

And there was another curious look from Sparkle, at that.

"Well, how have you been viewing it so far?"

[notconflicted]

"It's a different situation," she said, "but the majority of the time I think he's very specifically done with me. But if he has to be, then I suppose he has to be."

Still sucked, but it had to be healthier.

[myownface]

Sparkle bit the inside of his cheek at that one.

Hm.

"I mean," he hedged, "if you take a step back for your own mental health because he's shitty for your headspace, all power to you. I love the man. Like. With all my fucking heart I love the man. But I'll be the first one to admit that worrying about where his head is all the time will fuck you up. And if wondering if he's avoiding you or if he's just in a mood is making things hard for you..."

He shrugged a little.

"You can risk it getting ugly and call him on it, or you can give him his space and see if something gives. But if there's one thing I'm sure about with Atton, it's that the moment shit gets complicated, if he's got the option to take his distance and he thinks it'd be easier to just not face it again, he'll take it."

[notconflicted]

"He certainly will," Sia agreed. "I don't exactly get opportunities to call him on it, and there comes a point where me trying makes it worse for both of us. So, anything that happens now is essentially up to him, and I have to deal with it."

So yeah, she wasn't holding her breath.

[myownface]

Sparkle grimaced a little in sympathy.

"Yeah," he sighed. "Maybe it would've been easier years ago, but everyone being scattered to the four winds doesn't make it easier, either."

He took a drink from his beer, and then shrugged.

"Maybe he'll pull his head out of his ass before too long and figure his shit out. Weirder things have happened. But it's not worth driving yourself nuts over, either."

[notconflicted]

"Exactly. Luckily I have much bigger problems than whether someone still wants to be friends with me," Sia said with a wry smile.

[myownface]

"And you still have all the rest of us idiots," Sparkle offered, lifting his beer in a toast. "So, like, you come out pretty even there."

[notconflicted]

"Yes, I do," she smiled, raising her own glass. "And I wouldn't have thought a year ago that I would have you or Cade here."

[myownface]

"It's weird the difference a year can make, right?" Sparkle tapped his glass against hers with a grin. "I'm not complaining, anyway. Happy birthday!"

[notconflicted]

"Thank you," she said, and sipped her drink. "I'm glad you were able to be here."